Saturday, March 26, 2011

end...


cut of with something that we like is not easy.... but life must go on.....damn it my heart hurt! ;(

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Jellyfish


do have thing that u like or want to keep it but u just cant because it dangerous...something like jellyfish ? or mayb something else a flower but its poison, a spider but dangerous animal...some people love spider or ur own some1 u care? ....i dont know whether should i keep it or let it go.....
hard to choose.... u know its hard to have trust on people or people to trust me....either way if we so blind we could just stuck....people could betray me or i can be betray to them.... should i take this as my lesson???or i should change? i heard one of my friends saids to me onetime..."why u always get a lonely friends? is it true? mayb...or mayb i feel the same way like them...thats is a reason i can get along with them....i used to be lonely before....i had a dark past that i want to forget.... and i change myself to be better....i was timid,not alot of talking, i hardly smile.... when i meet some1 same fate like me...i dont think i want to let them experience the same as me.... i want them to change to have better life...cause living in -ve life can get u into another world which u will never gonna be happy....
i want you to be my friends.... but if it soo hard to be that u are not my friends.....i care for u but u are soo hard to blend in....i cant even get neear...u are too far...i try 2 reach u but ur hand getting so far and far....i use another method to reach u but still cant....i am hopeless friends or u really want to push me away??i can be ur friend... but u will sting and i cant get near just like jellyfish.... looks soo comfortable with that jelly thing but it can sting u if we get near... hahahahhahaha xD i getting crappy dude!!!! i just type nonsense again!!!! >//////< ohhh welll i just want to type what i want xP
i let go of the friendship so i wont get hurt but i still care and hope u wont sting any1 else...stay away from problem^_^ ...u could say im doing wrong things but i wont regret what i do... i used to mad+sad about it but still the best decision...i am soooo mentally tired
thank you for being my friend i do really had enjoyment being ur friends before this...being part of ur life also wouldnt be my regret....i glad i knew u =D i do miss those great times that we had, i will never ever forget it =D great moment shouldnt be forgotten like that...it should be keep it and store in my memories...eventho im not sure i have a lot of space to store xDD but dont worry i can still have few gigabytes xP...i have long way to go to store my memories ^_^
yaaaaahhhhh ni bru mmbr klo blak cmne??? perrghhhh x lrat aku~~~~ T^T

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

my heart ^_^

haaaaa here im back....of course just to type my nonsense thoughts again ehhehehe...i love u "listen of heart" hahahhahahah xD
haha after watch paradise ranch think about love everytime >_<.... i love my family,my friends,my surrounding =3 i cant say how much i thankful for what i have in my life ...i love everything right now!!! i glad im live in malaysia,im glad im a girl,proud im islam+malay,im glad to have such a family,im glaad i love drawing and further study in graphic design =D.... last week i went for a weeding which i did not actually attend i just company my parent to phang...x pe la at least i had my holiday in hotel! hehehe such nice view at the beach >_<
i actually went to the beach with both of my parent!!!! uwaaa this is surprising cause my parent usually will not joining these kind of things....iyaaaaahhhrrghhhhh i didnt get a chance to go to the pool!!!! adoiiiii dh mengidam ni!!!!>_<
when we went down to the beach the wave was big so we didnt go that far...that day was the sweet memory cause i had fun with my parent playing at the beach...theres a part when big wave come my parent actually still stand , eden dh tergolek2 kt tepi 2 hahahhahahah xD >_<
it was the best memory with my parent this year~~ ^_^

i want to have this holiday to be peaceful holiday~~~ i cant be sooo emo everytime...its really not good...im tired and tired always emo and sad about things......i have made decision to stop my nonsense...i want to back to reality which what ive dream of...i should be thinking about my future which bothering me lately....what will i be ? what will i work? can i be successful designer or illustrator? what about my future life would be? can i give my parent money? can i make my parent proud? uwaaa so many thing that freak my out...i know i shouldnt be thinking so much just do ur best what i am now..... adult life is sooo hard~~~ i want to back to my teenage life!!!! T^T...huhuhuh errr im overacting xDDD hahahahh times cannot go back i need to keep move on...believe in my self! yoshhh!!! POSITIVE THINKING!!!!